If I could do anything in this world, I would GIVE. I would give everything I could. I would give advice, I would give love, I would give food, I would give, give, give. I am constantly thinking about whether or not where I am in life is where I want to be. While my kids are healthy, I have my husband by my side, and I have career, a roof over my head, and so on, there are still days where I do not feel fulfilled. I want to be able to go to bed at night with my heart 110% full, not dreading the next day and questioning day after day if this is really life (if y’all follow me on IG, I post this constantly).
I believe I have a greater purpose than what I am currently serving. It is so hard to know deep in your soul that there is something else you are supposed to be doing, but you have no idea when or where. All I can say is that I constantly get an itch, and I can see clearly that where I am today is not my final destination. I constantly dream of the things I know will make me feel whole, but I have a whole life to take care of and the time is never right, the energy is not there, and I keep repeating what I did that day, the next day.
The other day I went to church and the pastor had a message that really hit home (the message almost always hits home because I rarely go to church, but when I do… man oh man do I find out that He really had something to tell me). I actually tried to go to church for weeks, and every Sunday something came up. I wasn’t able to go, Sunday after Sunday. I kept feeling like I NEEDED to go, and I finally did. I literally even cried one Sunday because of how strong this calling to get to church was (trust me, the old me would think this sounds ridiculous, but I promise you, it’s true). When I finally made it, I prayed to hear the message I was meant to hear that day. I know I made it there for a reason, and I was waiting to hear what I was meant to hear that Sunday. Overall, the message was to be ready… because when the invitation comes, I have to not only be excited about it but take action. Sometimes new opportunities are right in front of us, and we don’t take them. We are ready for change, we wait for change and opportunities, we get excited about the idea, but when they come knocking, we do not do what we need to do to see results.
Here is the sermon from my church:
I want to share this with you because it was a very inspiring message. Even if you are not a believer in the Word, this message can apply to any of us and I hope it resonates with you too.
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