the mission

I am finally about to put together something that I have been dreaming for many years but have never actually acted on those dreams.

I have always wanted to travel to my country and bring clothes and school supplies for those in need. Today I thought about it all day long and have decided that it is time to act! I believe this is one of those things that will fill up my heart and make me feel like I am fulfilling one of the many purposes I know God intended for me. God has put this feeling of needing to give in my heart and I feel like I must pursue it!

When people ask me what I do as a hobby , I never have an answer. That’s because if I’m not wasting hours of my day scrolling through people’s lives during my free time, I am binge watching Netflix. Productive huh? (Oh the sarcasm!). If I am not doing any of those things, I am cleaning my house or simply dealing with life. Til this day, it amazes me when I meet women who are mothers and full time employees, who still manage to find time during their day to do things they enjoy. For years I have been looking for that extra time, but life just won’t let me find it. Either way, I’m not artistic — I’m not a singer, I’m not a photographer, I’m not an MUA, I’m not a party designer.  I’m also in no shape, way or form athletic, so I am not a fitness enthusiast. Yes, I live in Florida, but I am not one of those crazies obsessed with Disney (no offense, just not my thing). In fact, I still don’t know what it is I’m good at, or even worse what I like.  That’s pretty sad considering I’m hitting 30. My life consists of taking care of my kids, my husband, my home, and working.  Aside from working (because let’s be honest if we all could, we wouldn’t work), all those other things are what I enjoying pouring my time and energy into. The only thing I can think of is traveling, which is now at the top of our list, but still, that only happens here and there.

The search continues for me to find a hobby or something to do, but in the meantime, I will start to plan this mission trip.

 

This is not my final destination

If I could do anything in this world, I would GIVE. I would give everything I could. I would give advice, I would give love, I would give food, I would give, give, give. I am constantly thinking about whether or not where I am in life is where I want to be. While my kids are healthy, I have my husband by my side, and I have career, a roof over my head, and so on, there are still days where I do not feel fulfilled. I want to be able to go to bed at night with my heart 110% full, not dreading the next day and questioning  day after day if this is really life (if y’all follow me on IG, I post this constantly).

I believe I have a greater purpose than what I am currently serving. It is so hard to know deep in your soul that there is something else you are supposed to be doing, but you have no idea when or where. All I can say is that I constantly get an itch, and I can see clearly that where I am today is not my final destination. I constantly dream of the things I know will make me feel whole, but I have a whole life to take care of and the time is never right, the energy is not there, and I keep repeating what I did that day, the next day.

The other day I went to church and the pastor had a message that really hit home (the message almost always hits home because I rarely go to church, but when I do… man oh man do I find out that He really had something to tell me). I actually tried to go to church for weeks, and every Sunday something came up. I wasn’t able to go, Sunday after Sunday. I kept feeling like I NEEDED to go, and I finally did. I literally even cried one Sunday because of how strong this calling to get to church was (trust me, the old me would think this sounds ridiculous, but I promise you, it’s true). When I finally made it, I prayed to hear the message I was meant to hear that day. I know I made it there for a reason, and I was waiting to hear what I was meant to hear that Sunday. Overall, the message was to be ready… because when the invitation comes, I have to not only be excited about it but take action. Sometimes new opportunities are right in front of us, and we don’t take them. We are ready for change, we wait for change and opportunities,  we get excited about the idea, but when they come knocking, we do not do what we need to do to see results.

Here is the sermon from my church:

Sermon: A Divine Invitation

I want to share this with you because it was a very inspiring message. Even if you are not a believer in the Word, this message can apply to any of us and I hope it resonates with you too.